So, for as long as I can remember, I’ve always thought that the most attractive quality someone can have is the ability sing. It separates the cream of the crop. I am currently in a musical and the lead has a sultry voice that makes me weak in the knees. I hadn’t really looked at him before since he’s straight, but once he started singing, I saw him differently. (Just to make absolutely clear: I’m not crushing on him or anything, his voice was just super attractive.)

Anyway, Future Husband, it would be great if you could sing. I would love to be serenaded every once in a while. I would also like to be able to sing duets.

Note: If you didn’t know, all the celebrities pictured above, sing. Also, please remember that none of these posts are deal breakers (unless otherwise noted… which hasn’t occurred). 

Okay, so I plan for the tone of this blog to usually be more upbeat (like I am in real life, promise!). So it’s probably not a good idea to write anything past 1:00 a.m. But here I am doing it anyway, against my better judgement. 

I’m pretty sure I could just reblog a recent post written by dumbledoresdilemma. He talked about being sick of being single. And seriously, that exact feeling has been haunting me for a while. I think it get’s stronger the more I come out. 

And I’m not just single. I’m super single (You know, with the cape and everything). I have never been on a real date (I’m qualifying this as with a man, even though my heterosexual dating hasn’t been very pervasive either). So, the problem is, I can’t start dating. At least, not if I want to continue to go to school. I’m really sad to say that I am incredibly financially dependent on my parents and it’s been made very clear that if I date, I’ll lose all that (actually, I might lose it anyway, but that’s another story). Usually I can placate these feelings since I’m so busy all the time, but in the lulls they come rushing back.

It’s not the physical I want either. I just want to have someone to love and to have them love me back (not that I wouldn’t invite the physical, it’s just not the focus of what I want). I have fantastic friends that I love and they love me back, but in a different way. Now I have my friend who is in a gay relationship and I get a bit envious (I try not to be). To add to my frustration I have one friend who comes to me for everything, which is great, truly. The thing is, she will complain to me about how too many guys are after her and how could she ever choose who to go out with. And it takes all my will power not to say, “REALLY?! You’re coming to me with THIS?!” (I do love her though. Seriously)

UGH. That is the only way to say how I truly feel right now. ugh. 

So I found this challenge and it seemed appropriate for my tumblr, so let’s do it! Now keep in mind these questions are about the movies. Not the comics. Northstar didn’t make an appearance in the movies so you won’t see much of him in these questions.

Day 1: Favorite X-Men Character

I would have to say Magneto! I have this thing for antiheroes (and some might argue with me that Magneto is not an antihero, but I’m stickin’ to my guns). In almost anything, the antihero is my favorite. He’s the main villain in a good number of the movies. What makes Erik (Magneto) such a great antagonist, is that you can relate to him. You can absolutely see his point of view (or maybe it’s just me and now you think I’m crazy). When he teams up with the X-Men I get all giddy inside. I love Magneto so much. 

Also, it should be noted that I love both Sir Ian McKellen’s and Michael Fassbender’s interpretation of the character. Ian McKellen’s performance demands attention. Magneto is powerful and he knows it. He has such stage presence in every scene. Fassbender let us see the growing side of Magneto. He (meaning Magneto) hadn’t quite reached his potential, but Fassbender conveyed Erik’s dismal past and how he deals with it extremely well. (Plus he’s quite attractive!)

Well, I’ve been meaning to do a little more blogging but I don’t always know what to blog about. So I began doing the Book of Questions a while ago, but most of the questions are about adultery, are boring, or just don’t apply to me. So, I thought, “I know! I’ll do a 30 day blogging challenge or something!” Well, I was looking for some, but I didn’t really like any of them. I liked bits and pieces, but it wasn’t really what I was going for. I kind of want better questions, that apply to me. Does anyone have any suggestions?

Well, today I had an interesting experience. Someone came out to me. While this isn’t a unique experience for me (one of my campers I worked with this summer came out to me), it still felt unique since it was one of my good friends. 

After rehearsal today, I offered him a ride home and he accepted. When we got in my car he asked, “Can I ask you a really awkward question?”

I answered with a nonchalant, “Yeah.”

He pressed a little more, “Like really awkward.”

I gave a reassuring, “Yeah.” Honestly, I thought he was about to ask me if I was gay. Which I made a quick decision that if he had I would tell him the truth. (Actually I decided a while ago that if anyone was brave enough to actually ask me and wanted a sincere answer, I would tell them)

Then he asked me, “Would you still be my friend if I was gay?”

I was taken aback a bit, since I didn’t expect this turn of events but I quickly replied with a definite, “Yeah.” Then he said, “Yeah.” And we went back and forth saying yeah several times.

Well, eventually he said, “Well, I am.”

And I replied, “So am I.”

Anyway, the reason I tell you this is because I’m kind of excited. Not because I want to date him or anything. It’s because I get to interact with another gay person in real life. I did during the summer but I haven’t since I’ve been back in Utah and I don’t think I realized how much I missed it. And it’s not like anything will really change, but it’s nice to not feel alone. 

Anonymous asked: What happened to that post about playing your piano?

At first I was really confused about this question. It took me a while to figure out what you were talking about. I didn’t remember deleting anything from my blog/tumblr. But then I realized. I had replied to the tumblrbot about… honestly I don’t remember. Was it what my favorite thing was? I’m not sure. Well I replied, but I didn’t mean to publish it. It was up for approximately 30 seconds. But you must have seen it.

Well, I deleted it because I felt super corny as I wrote it and I couldn’t really say how I felt about my piano. I guess I’ll give it another go. 

My favorite thing I own… or my favorite activity… or when I feel most at home… (as I said, I don’t remember) would have to be my piano. I grew up in a very musical home and we all learned instruments. Most of us learned 2 a few learned 3. I learned the piano, cello, and to play the piano. I love music and a part of my major is that I have to learn to play the main instruments in a basic orchestra/band, which has been great.

Anyway, about my piano. My mom is definitely the best at the piano in my family. Which makes sense. She’s had more time to work on it and she’s so dedicated to it. I doubt I’ll ever get to the level she is, it’s not a goal of mine. While she is the most proficient, I feel that the piano means more to me.

As you may have guessed, growing up in a household like mine and being attracted to boys causes a lot of mixed emotions and stress. Piano became my outlet. I poured my heart and soul into it. (But each time I played it was to help me and for me to help me deal with the inner workings of my brain. Which my mom was not a fan of since my technique was good but not perfect and I made too many mistakes.)

Anyway, to this day I still play my piano and I can always find something to play to let myself be me and not care what others thought. That is why it’s my favorite. 

P.S. I know I expanded a bit from my previous answer, I hope you’re okay with that. I don’t remember what I wrote before.

Some of my friends have gotten married and their spouses (wives… only one each, just so we’re clear) have refused to let them play video games. Excuse me? Now, I don’t think video games are a necessity of life, but playing them is really fun. 

Some of my other friends have stated that they will make sure their spouse will allow them to play, but I have a loftier goal. I want to play video games with my husband. Okay future, husband? I think it’s a great bonding experience. Do I require that you’re amazing or even decently skilled? No, just be willing to play with me. I promise I’ll go easy on you. ;)